Hello and Happy Holidays to my friends here on the blog.
I thought it might be fun to reflect back on 2013 before we head into a new year full of exciting possibilities. I’ve been putting in way too many hours at the office lately and slacking when it comes to blog posts and new recipes. Today, I also want to share with you something that I haven’t discussed on the blog yet; I called off my wedding and engagement this past year.
It’s been almost six months. We were supposed to get married in September, but I had an intuitive feeling that it was not the right decision for me. I’ll share more about how I came to honor my inner voice in a future post. For right now, this is all that I want to share.
To go from being in a relationship with your high school sweetheart over a 10 year period to being single and on your own for the first time in your adult life, is a very big transition. Luckily, I had spent a lot of time living on my own while Blake traveled for work over the past few years. It’s been an emotional and educational experience and I am extremely thankful to my friends, family, and co-workers for helping me through the past six months.
With that being said, I’m going to answer some fun questions inspired by Danielle LaPorte's email newsletter about where I’m at today and I invite you to answer these same questions as well.
What were my highs in 2013?
Beautiful daily walks with Layla out in nature. I feel so blessed to live in Central Oregon with an abundance of beautiful walking paths and trails. I used these walks as a time to reflect on my life decisions, listen to inspiring podcasts, and connect with myself and nature.
Feeling confident with my work abilities. I feel fortunate to work with an amazing team of motived, health-conscious, hard-working individuals. Having never worked in a corporate work environment, I was nervous about my new health-care job this past January. Luckily, I was quickly embraced and celebrated for my dedication and commitment to our cause.
Visiting Southern California twice. The first time was a road-trip with Blake in late March. We had a short and sweet trip down to Long Beach and ended up staying in Napa on our way back home. My second trip was to visit my BFF, Rachael, for a weekend in September. Our time together is always special and it was a much needed get-away that I’ll always remember. Somehow childhood friends always evoke a sense of comfort and inspiration. I’m so lucky to get to see my Rae Rae from time to time!
What were my lows in 2013?
Overextending myself with work commitments. I tend to lean towards perfectionist tendencies and put 100% of myself into my quality of work. I pride myself on my strong work ethic, but sometimes it gets the best of me.
Which leads into how I got run down and developed a parasite infection and yeast overgrowth. My energy was zapped and it took a good 3+ months on a very strict cleanse to help heal and strengthen my body.
Ending my relationship. It sucked. It was one of the most difficult decisions I have had to make and I absolutely hate knowing how much it hurt him. I don’t want to go through that type of break-up again. However, I now know that I’m strong enough to do it and be on my own.
What I’m doing in 2014 to make it my best year yet:
I don’t have my plans and goals set for 2014 yet. That’s what the week between Christmas and New Years is for! I booked myself a cheap flight down to San Francisco to visit a friend at the end of January. I’ve been dreaming of a trip to Spain, Italy, or Greece and think this would be a great time to jet over to Europe. I see myself hunkering down and focusing on some pretty lofty goals and projects this year. 2013 was a very big transitional year for me in my personal life and I would like to make my contributions to the world a higher priority for 2014.
What I’m doing this weekend:
Parties and holiday gatherings every night! Seriously, there is no lack of social obligations on my calendar right now. I love celebrating with friends and family, but this introvert needs a relaxing night in now and then! There are a few presents left to wrap and I want to bake a big batch of homemade, healthy granola to give out as gifts next week.
What bad habits I’m no longer doing:
I’m no longer feeling bad about my decisions. I’m owning them and standing tall about my choices and beliefs.
I’m catching myself before I feel the urge to tell a white lie. I am an extremely open and honest person, but at the same time, I’ve been known to tell a white lie because I want to “protect” the other person. I’m stopping myself before a white lie comes out of these lips and either saying it like it is or keeping my mouth shut.
What tunes are inspiring me these days?
Lindsey Stirling is the most amazing performer ever! Seriously, I dare you to listen to her self-titled album and not be blown away by her talent.
Angus & Julia Stone. This brother and sister duo are very mellow and calm to have on in the background. I especially like the track “Paper Aeroplane.”
The Weeknd. I first heard him on the “Drake” Pandora station and fell in love with the lyrics and beat. “Trilogy” is my morning soundtrack while I’m getting ready for work.
What am I feeling really grateful for?
I’m feeling really grateful for my family and friends. I know it’s cliche, but their support is what has helped me stay afloat this past year. I would not be the woman I am today without them.
I’m really grateful for my little Layla. Blake and I have joint custody of her and right now it’s the perfect mix of having her here to snuggle with and enjoying some time without the obligations and responsibilities of having a dog.
I’m feeling very grateful for my health. I am very fortune to be in good health. I do not take this for granted and I make most of my daily decisions based upon how it will impact my health - physical, mental and emotional.
What major lessons did I learn this year?
I learned that to be authentic and thrive, I have to honor my truth.
I learned that I am strong enough to be on my own.
I learned that the right thing is often the hard thing, but it’s the best thing.
What do you think? Ask yourself these questions and feel free to share your answers below. Here’s to ending 2013 on a high note.